#19

Welp, I'm 28wks now and getting pretty excited. I'm at work right now and just thinking about the baby and not really focusing on working. Also, the lure of a three day weekend (and the fact that by boss left early today) makes it difficult for me to focus on work.

I had a doctors appointment today and all is good in the hood. The baby is 'growing nicely' as the Dr. said and I was able to talk with the doctor about some of my thoughts about a natural birth. She did say that there aren't a lot of natural medicine free births at the hospital and she did advocate for at least an epidural for a first birth. She said that I may be able to do it without medication, but not to pigeon hole myself into only doing it that way. She wanted me to remain flexible, which is what I'm planning on anyway, she said that having an epidural can help me with my energy which will make pushing easier. I told her that I plan on being flexible, and if I feel like I can't handle the pain I will get the epidural w/out feeling bad about it. In other news, I'm finally back up to my pre-pregnancy weight. The Doctor is happy with my weight and would like me to continue to gain gradually. She is not worried about me having to have a c-section, which is something I was worried about. The baby decided to kick while she was listening to the heart beat today, it was pretty funny. My blood pressure was actually normal, which was a nice surprise, since it's been borderline high at my last few appointments.

Valentines day was very nice this year. We didn't go out or do anything too fancy. Justin researched a recipe for turkey meatloaf, since I'm not eating red meat, and it was AMAZING! I am so fortunate that Justin loves to cook. He really is just an amazing wonderful guy and I honestly don't know how I got so lucky. Our evening was also fun and kinda hot...that's all I'm gonna say here. :)

I did feel kinda bad that we didn't get to go to Jerianne's wedding. I don't want to go into the drama here, but it sure is some drama. I wish we would have been made aware of when/where it was, but that was her choice not to invite us. I honestly hope they have a beautiful life together and I hope that she will talk to Justin eventually.

Since I'm bouncing around a lot in this entry, I just wanted to throw this out there because I liked this conversation. At Sarah's shower I was sitting with Kindra and Joc, it was good times. At one point we were talking about toys from when we were kids....during this conversation it dawned on me that I really didn't get as many toys as other kids or accessories for my toys, but that didn't seem to bother me as a child. I am actually extremely glad about that now, because not having a barbie car or dream house actually helped me become more creative. Kindra and Joc were surprised to hear that I used shoes as barbie cars, made 'dream homes' out of chairs and sheets, and made a lot of my barbies clothes out of ribbons, shoelaces or scarves. I honestly thought that all kids did these things, but as I look back on it, I do remember going to friends houses and playing with their Barbie mansions. Kindra (or Joc) pointed out that that is probably why I am so Crafty now. I like that I am crafty and that I think outside of the box sometimes. I like that I make things and that I can figure out uses for things that maybe weren't intended for said uses. So, this prompted a conversation with Justin about toys and things...he was pretty much in the same boat as me growing up, had to make the best of what he had. He also liked that it caused him to be more musical since he didn't have the latest video games and whatnot. Though i want to give my child the world, maybe we would be giving them a greater gift of imagination and creativity if we limited the amount of Toys and things that our child has. We have always been on the same boat as far as gigantic themed birthday parties and such for babies (not really something we want to do), but I'm glad we are on the same page about this. I know that some people will not understand when our child only gets one birthday present or one Christmas present, but this is how I grew up and I think it helped me in the long run. NOW, who knows, these things may change and we may become a product of our society and buy into the more is more mentality...I just like that we are talking about these things now. :)

Anyway, I think I need to do some work...then maybe leave work early. :) lol