#12

I'm not very good at updating this, but that is okay...I will do it when I can and I won't feel bad about it. It's currently 3:30ish in the morning and I'm wide awake. We went to Lil Devils today to pick up something for a very special 1 year old, and a crying walk down 4th street followed. While we were shopping I found myself missing Pete and almost broke down at the counter while paying because we let the nice shop girl know that we were pregnant, something I really wish I could tell Pete. I know it's part pregnancy hormones, but it's also just really sad. I miss our friend. So I've been up since 3am using a lot of tissue crying every time I think about my friend with the perfect hugs, sincere laugh and huge heart. It's kinda weird, I noticed that he died last May, and our due date is in May...I'm sure just a coincidence, but I also wouldn't be surprised if we had an angel helping us out to make this pregnancy possible. Pete knew how much we wanted to start a family, and he was a huge cheerleader for us. Anyway, I miss him.

In other news, my last post lied. Oops, I guess I wasn't 9 weeks then, I was only 7 or so weeks. When we went to our OB appointment at the end of September and had our first Ultrasound, they said we were only 8 weeks and 1 day....so that makes me 11 weeks and 4 days today. So, we still haven't told EVERYONE yet, though we've told the most important family and friends....and a bunch of random people as well (see above telling the shop girl at Lil Devils). But, so far so good...I guess that's all I can say. I have had a cold that won't go away for the past week and a half and some other fun mystery ailment of my joints that has led me to have a Vegetarian diet. It's weird not eating meat, but it's also not that hard either. I just have to think more about where I can get lunch and what we are going to make for dinner. It's taken some adjusting, but I think it will be good for my health and good for the baby.

People keep telling us they think we're going to have a boy. I'm really looking forward to finding that out in a month or two. I would def be happy with a boy....or a girl. :) I just want to have a healthy baby. Of course it's way more fun to dress girls, but there is def. something special about having a little boy. So I'm sure I will be overjoyed either way. :) I feel a lot better after writing...I think I can go back to bed for the next two hours b4 I have to get up to take Justin to work. Thanks for reading...I know, I like to ramble. :)