#15

I find that it's hard not to focus on 'baby stuff.' I wanted to do an entry about other things and all of my thoughts about 'other things' are so intertwined with 'baby stuff.' So, I'll do my best.

Work. I really do love my job, I love working with my clients. The things I don't love seem to be taking up a lot of my time recently, like doing tons of paperwork, so it makes it harder to love my job. One of the best things about my job is the flexibility of my schedule. I've thought about changing positions, there was an opening for a Training Coordinator, but that would require having a set schedule and working from the office everyday. I like that I can work from home some days and leave the house later on other days and work later evenings. I like that I can pretty much make my schedule however I want as long as I get my work 'mostly' done. I've come to the realization that getting my work totally done is not possible, so I'm happy with mostly. Anyway, all of these thoughts are def. connected to baby stuff, as I like having the option of staying at home maybe one day a week with the baby. We'll see how it all pans out.

Related to work, is licensing. I have been studying with Livier pretty much every weekend for the past two months...I was hoping to be ready to take the test by the beginning of January, but that doesn't seem to be a realistic goal at this time. I'm not doing as well on my practice tests as I'd like to be doing and I've really only made a dent in the reading materials. I wish I had more energy and time to dedicate to studying, but by the time I'm done with my work day I am BEAT. I've thought about trying to flex a day at work to study, and I might start doing that...as long as I can continue to be 'mostly' caught up at work. I would really love to get licensed before the baby is born, but if I don't pass the first test, i can't retake it for six months. It's stressful thinking about it...but I'll continue to work towards it and I will be licensed someday.

Anyway, I'm hungry now so I'm going to go eat something. I've learned not to wait too long to eat or I get even more emotional than I used to get. It's great, I cry at least once a day...usually about something i hear on the radio or see on the TV...usually things that shouldn't make me cry. Anyway, I'm off before I start crying. :)