#23

Wowwy...it's been a few months. So many things have happened it's hard to determine where I should begin. Life has been so moment to moment...so, I suppose I should start in this moment. I am currently sitting at a coffee shop and taking a break from studying. That's right, I'm studying again. I am actually trying to get a testing strategy down and it's very hard to do at home with a lil baby. Truth is, I would so much rather attend to Eliza then study. But, I need to take my Clinical Vignette exam sooner rather than later and I don't know that I will have time to study once I have to go back to work. Soooo, I've been trying to get out of the house at least every other day for an hour or two to study. It's hard to focus on what seems so insignificant now...but I have to remind myself that it is EXTREMELY Significant! Passing this exam will enhance my paycheck, making life a little less stressful now that we have our bundle of joy!

She really is a bundle of joy! Every day I am amazed by the fact that Justin and I made a life...a wonderfully, silly, beautiful, gassy, thoughtful, challenging, amazing life. She is everything all at once. Her entrance into the world was a very difficult one for me, maybe something I will write about in a later entry, and the first several weeks challenged both me and Justin in ways we never anticipated...but, life is starting to slow down, things are getting easier, and I'm finally starting to feel like more than a mother again. That sounds kind of negative I guess, but to me it is not. I think it's important to be who I have always been with the enhanced title of someone's mother. :)

I'm still trying to figure out who I have always been, who I am, who I want to be. It's a life long journey. I'm excited to add to it every day. Okay, I better get back home to be with my little one. I miss her every second I am gone, but on the other hand, I cherish my alone time...even if I am studying. ~The end